I don’t know if you believe in God. Honestly, I’m not sure what I believe in myself. What I do know is that everything seems to happen for a reason. I might not understand it at the time, but eventually the events in my life all start to make sense. If you have been following my blog, you know that recently I had a medical issue and have not been feeling well.
My doctor contributed the seizures’ reappearance to stress and anxiety. He said that I should not be driving and that my neurologist will probably suspend my license for a year. If I can go one year seizure-free, I will be able to get my license back. With my current job coming to an end and my new job (within walking distance of my house) quickly approaching, there has been a lot of transition and stress in my life.
If you know me, I have a hard time admitting that I’m not okay and asking for help. I continued to try to work through these health issues. My body has continually been getting tired and weak with stress, medications, and anxiety. Not even two weeks ago I felt so strong and healthy. It’s crazy how quickly things can change.
A few days ago my job gave me the opportunity to leave my resignation early. I will be taking a sort of leave-of-absence for health reasons and will be released from my resignation date on a good standing with the company. This news lead me to tears. I have been so worried about how I am going to be able to schedule my upcoming appointments without taking time off. I have been desperately trying to figure out transportation to and from work. I knew that I needed to take time to help heal my body and mind, but didn’t know how to make those opportunities happen.
In the next month I will be focusing on my physical and mental health. This isn’t what I asked for, but it is definitely what I needed.
Take care of yourself. You can’t take care of others when you are broken yourself.